graduate

finally i'm done my job in my study life, i'm graduate student now, i appreciate my family and my friend who are care about me and fight together with me. Thank a lot and prepare for my convocation in this November or December, see you my friend.

Now i need to start my new chapter in my life which is WORKING LIFE. i need to looking for job and hope i can get it for my mum medicine. it's to decrease her pressure and money problem in her life. I promise  i will get a better life for you, mum..

P.S: get a better life, start from your attitude and behavior.

appreciate

i appreciate i got a good lecturer in my life and in college, i also appreciate they teach me a lot of knowledge and care about me..

and after i read a blog from my lecturer i feel touching, caring and warm.. and i fall in cry mood. suddenly my mind keep on my lecturer imagine.. THANK YOU for teaching me 2 semester, even it is not very long but i really appreciate that i have a nice, good, caring lecturer and let me know more about the knowledge and get more information.

i also appreciate the teacher who teach me in CERTIFICATE. if NOT i wont have today, i also wont forgot Mr FAZHAM for teaching, even you are not here anymore, but I still remember what sir u teaching and Rest In Peace.

thank you my lecturer who teach me in my life, thank a lot <3 p="p">

有些朋友，曾经无话不说，现在无话可说

岁月拉长了回忆的战线，无情的将心中残留的感动一点点赶出记忆。。。。。

是怨恨岁月无情，还是感叹情薄如纸？我们仍需共生命的慷慨与繁华相爱，即使岁月以刻薄与荒芜相欺。

随着时间的推移，日期的更新，人的情感也会发生很大的变化。如果两人能够经常保持联系，清楚地了解对方的一切，这种现象是不会发生的~

时间让彼此陌生的两人变得熟悉彼此依赖，时间让熟悉的人变得陌生疏远.

我们曾经无话不说，所以最终无话可说 　 

　　为什么。。。 

不行不行，得到机会，我要远离，我要未来高贵，理智，美丽。 

　　 不行不行，我经过你，你的眼中，尽是我的过去，一地碎玻璃。


我们曾经无话不说，所以最终无话可说 　 


　　为什么。。。 

　　那是不是说明我们要保留一些


你永远也看不到我最寂寞时候的样子，因为只有你不在我身边的时候，我才最寂寞。




有些朋友，曾经无话不说，现在无话可说










Yet more and more time passes silently. 
　　 
　　 

Outside the wind's incomplete unrest 
　　 
　　 

builds and disperses clouds about the sky. 
　　 
　　 

And dark towns heap up on the horizon. 
　　 
　　 

None of this cares for us. Nothing shows why 
　　 
　　

 At this unique distance from isolation 
　　 
　　 

It becomes still more difficult to find 
　　 
　　 

Words at once true and kind 
　　 
　　 

Or ont untrue and not unkind.













i hope i'm still can with u all

i hope i can inside your heart,

i hope i still is your breast friend, sister...

i hope u all can find me when missing me..

i hope you all can find me without any reason,

i just hope i still inside your heart...

life

hey!! i'm back again, now i having my holiday.. i finish my exam ald, and i hope i can pass all my subject and to graduate. by the way, today the topic i share is about my life.

i pass my individual and independence life in 2009 until 2012, 3 year plus at TARC (Tunku Abdul Rahman College), this 3 year plus i feel happiness and fun but the reason not mean that i stay at outside for fun and happen. the reason is i meet a friend that helpful, friendly, and Care. i feel fun is because they bring all the happiness to me, share their experience. In this all sem, 3 year plus.. i meet a lot of teacher, they are good, care and nice. i very love them. now i start to miss them (teacher and friend).

in this year Hari Raya, i hear that MR Fazham is pass away, i shock and cry.. he is a good, knowledgeable teacher and that time i still remember he teach us in certificate and teach in fundamental practice and conventions in communication. i cant stop to cry it, even he just teach me 1 sem, but i cant stop thinking of him, and dun have taking picture with him too. i feel regret and i hope sir can rest in peace (R.I.P). we will miss u and wont forgot about Mr Fazham.

i also thinking of my friend, how good are they, how funny are them. i missing them. sometimes, i dunno why i will cry in the small matter? maybe is i care.. i care of something.. i no dare to told my friend i cry because of we are gone, i no dare to told i cry because i dun wan leave you all.. i hope you all can stay well and please remember me, and we still is a Best Best friend..

 together prepare press conference with my gang..., play, eat together....

 assignment together...

 traditional presentation (certificate) ...

Certificate PR B4

 my lovely best friend

diploma PR B7 cupcake for orphanage to celebrate Christmas... 

Certificate PR B4 kiasu gang press conference...

kiasu gang <3 p="p">

all the memory pop out from my mind and i wish we all still can meet and can chitchat together, please dun forgot what we say, what we did, what we share before..i wish we can always happy together and fun together.. and BFF, dun forget each other. 

emo

based on my feeling, what i want to say, what i thinking... i keep on crying.. even having final.. i also feel sadness when think of it..

i miss my best friend, my sister, my friend.. but r they missing me? r they care about you? i cry.. i feel sad.. i feel  y i so care about it? even u call them as sister.. also like nothing.. ='(

when i not there, i know who is the one not care about it.. i dun mind, when i know the situation and the indirect meaning, i very very disappointed.. i know i'm always alone.. even i go another places or disappear also nobody care.. as one of my best friend say, when happen something u will know who is the person who care of you in ur life..

what are the situation?

long time didnt update my blog already, how are you, my follower and my dear friend? I feel my life gonna to start a new chapter already. By the way, this few day i quite sad because my lovely sugar glider is dead and my father keep saying and blame is my fault?!

what i did? i study at setapak and the sugar glider is at hometown. he keep on saying sugar glider dead is because i cut her nail?! the person who cut the nail is YOU, father, not me.. why all blame me? and why keep saying my fault?

i feel my really can't control my mood now, my pet, my mum, my situation all is make my mood spoil. i feel sadness because my family situation. i feel apologize for my mum, i cant help her when she sick.. even now i also cant help.. nobody know the feeling of sick and the person who beside. i worry my mum situation. my father keep on smoking, how to reduce it? how my mum recover? i keep on asking myself.. how do i continuous it? how do i face my father?

i want my mum get healthy, and want help my mum to return all the fine to bank, and relative for the medical fees. now i can do is work hard, save hard.. to reduce my mum pressure.

蓝玫瑰

有一种玫瑰是蓝色的，花瓣象海水一样深邃，露珠一样晶莹，爱人的心一样柔软 敏感。并且它能感知爱情的忠贞和纯洁。它有一个妖娆的名字叫“蓝色妖姬”。关于它有这样一个故事——
　　
在法国的一个镇子里，有一个盛产玫瑰的塔里奥庄园，每年都有大量的奇异品种被运往世界各地的花店。庄园主的18岁的女儿丽芙·塔里奥有着一头锦缎一样滑软的金发，手指雪白柔软，蓝色的眼睛仿佛幽静的宝石，和她的蓝裙子相互辉映。
　　
她爱上了花匠的儿子凯恩，每个夜晚都到玫瑰园里与他约会。 当庄园主知道这一切后，恼怒的解雇了花匠，并将丽芙反锁在一栋废弃小木屋里。在被反锁的第七天，丽芙疲惫的睡着了，朦胧中，她看见故去的奶奶向她走来。奶奶告诉她，你将自己的血滴到这个戒指上，它就具备魔力，让你与凯恩相遇。但是你必须每晚9点以前赶回玫瑰园，否则，你的魔力尽失，会变成一枚血戒指，连人也做不回了。丽芙翻身坐起来，一枚黄旧的铜戒指正在自己的手指上熠熠闪光。
　　
她找了一株玫瑰，埋好戒指，在一家灯火通明的面包房里看到了消瘦的凯恩，他们彼此的注视着，仿佛要把对方的容颜刻进自己的眼睛，甚至心脏……一晚，两晚，三晚……每晚9点钟敲响的时候，丽芙都急匆匆的离去。第九个夜晚，凯恩抱怨道：“你为什么不肯多陪我？哪怕是一刻钟？为什么爱我却不能和我共渡一个完整的夜晚？”

丽芙默不作声，凯恩看着她那双雪白修长的手指，暗想：她这样的双手，天生是弹钢琴的，她压根受不了酵母、洗衣粉的腐蚀，甚至不能帮自己和匀面粉……他有意的考验她，拖延时间。零点钟声响起的时候，他听到丽芙微弱的叫了一声，在他的怀抱里慢慢变小，最后变成了一枚带血的戒指……凯恩娶了强壮的挤奶姑娘。

婚礼开始的那一刻，塔里奥玫瑰园开满了世界上最美丽的蓝色玫瑰，它天幕一样忧伤的蓝色，高贵的如同夜晚的宝石。更神奇的是它能感知爱情。在忠贞纯洁的爱人手上，它开的灿烂；在有了杂念的人那里，它会越开越颓败，看上去就像一枚带血的戒指。


蓝玫瑰是忘却的花朵，闻了它的花香可以忘记痛苦和忧伤或最重要的人 
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蓝玫瑰的意义是知己，虽然蓝色内涵了淡淡的忧伤，但它也代表了敦厚善良。


它会使你联想到天空，那么的宽广博大，什么东西都包容得下，你可以对它吐露你的一切，它总会回报你温暖的阳光，让你满怀信心地大步前行。
　　
神秘，爱情是神秘或者不为人知的爱情、不为人知的秘密，或秘密的忧伤
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蓝玫瑰也称为【蓝色妖姬】


清纯的爱和敦厚善良。
　　
蓝色妖姬玫瑰花常常代表的是：对恋人深深地爱，对夫妻间感情最真的诠释，在特别日子里最美好的祝福，对已逝去日子的美好回忆。
　　
单枝蓝色妖姬花语： 相守是一种承诺。人世轮回中，怎样才能拥有一份温柔的情意．相遇是一种宿命，心灵的交汇让我们有诉不尽的浪漫情怀；相守是一种承诺，人世轮回中，怎样才能拥有一份温柔的情意!
　　
双枝蓝色妖姬花语：相遇是一种宿命，心灵的交汇让我们有诉不尽的浪漫情怀。
　　
三枝蓝色妖姬花语：你是我最深的爱恋，希望永远铭记我们这段美丽的爱情故事。
　　
七枝蓝色妖姬花语：无尽的祝福
　　
十一枝蓝色妖姬花语：一心一意
　　
十二枝+满天星花语：哦，我的玫瑰情人，我要挑逗你、诱惑你、宠爱你、纵容你！我要你做我的蓝色精灵，对全世界扬起骄傲的唇角，在爱的天空中翱翔 ♥

我看清了这个世界

在你的生活，面子书，班，学校或社会上。。也许你是很多朋友，可你有想过在那么多个朋友中，有几个是真心和你好？有几个是当你有事的时候会舍命陪在你身边？还是说他们只是利用你？？当你什么都没有了，有谁会在你身边？病了才知道谁对你好, 醉了才知道你最爱谁


有时候你想告诉他们“我想你们了” 可到头来你会得到什么答案？？我的答案是“like”以外什么都没了。。我不是要你的甜言蜜语，我要的是个真的真的在无时无刻会跑来和你说话。。谈天说地的就那么简单。。不是我不找，而是我找而得到的答案一次比一次一样或更差。。


我知道你们说，你在别的地方，怎样找你。。朋友之间是没有份距离，一通电话，一个信息，就已经足够了。。在这里我只是想分享我的心情而不是骂，而不是埋怨。。


最后一句，我想你们了。。